And so we made our way then afterward to the Carmel, the Carmelite monastery that stands on the grounds of the camp, where the sisters live lives of reparation for the atrocities that happened there. And just before we went in the door, the guide pulled me aside and she said, “Father, I want to tell you something. I have to tell you something. I was the translator for the last surviving priest of Dachau. He died last year at the age of 102. And I asked him at the end of his life, ‘What do you think of your life?’ And he said, ‘Well, I’m grateful, of course, but I’m also ashamed.’” And she said, “Ashamed? What could you possibly have to be ashamed about?” And he said, “Well, part of it’s just survivor’s guilt. I lived and my brothers died. But there’s this other thing. I was a mediocre priest, and it took Dachau to get the mediocrity out of my priesthood. I was a mediocre priest,” he told her. “It took Dachau to get the mediocrity out of my priesthood.”
That haunted me for a long time. Indeed, the question of mediocrity, of human mediocrity, haunts every single examined life. We human beings are alone in the visible world as creatures who are ill at ease with our existence. Something is not right about us. We are not as we should be, and we know it. This is what John Paul II called the gap between who we were made to be and who we are.
So what can we do to contend with the mediocrity of our lives? Well, talent doesn’t help. I wish it did, but it doesn’t help. Indeed, the most talented among us are very often the least impressive because they somehow think that, or take for granted that they don’t have to do the hard work that’s necessary for genuine human excellence. It’s Aesop. It’s the tortoise and the hare.
Deep learning also does not eliminate our mediocrity. Your professors in this alma mater of ours have given you one of life’s great gifts, the gift of a great education. Not just training for a job, but deep and rich and true education. But because you have that education, you know that you’ve only just made a start. You know that the vast mansion of wisdom is much greater on the inside than on the outside. It’s infinite in there, and that in your time here you’ve only just breached the threshold. Confronted with all the things to know and learn and savor and contemplate, your mediocrity is absolute in the face of that.
Also, wealth doesn’t help. It’s a funny thing. A man only needs so much to flourish in life, and if there’s much beyond that, unless he takes refuge in generosity, he becomes more and more ridiculous or worse. In our budgeting at the University of Mary, we have a saying, “If you want to diminish something, hold back its resources. But if you want to corrupt something, flood it with resources.” No, wealth is not the answer, and neither is honor. In fact, honor amplifies our experience of mediocrity. When all speak well of you, unless you’re a nutcase, you think, “What would they say if they knew who I really was?”
No, talent and learning, wealth, and honor will not contend with our mediocrity. There is only one thing that I know of that can address this great problem for us, and it’s a gift that you’ve already been given in your friendships here and in your education. It is the secret to Christian perfection and holiness. It is the genius of St. Benedict at the end of the Roman Empire with all the world collapsing around him in every direction. It is the essence of the character of all the saints and scholars of our tradition. It is stability, whatever you want to call it. It is stability, constancy, perseverance, endurance, steadfastness, fidelity. Stability within and without. Stability within and without. That is the only thing that I know of that helps us to contend with the great problem of our mediocrity.
And you already know this. You know this because how did you get here today? Do you know the main reason? Because you didn’t quit. Yes. Yes, your minds were expanded and informed and transformed, but you’re here today also mostly because you kept showing up, because you didn’t run away, because you didn’t flake out. Ask anyone who here today is earning a real doctorate what separates them from the one who will never complete the dissertation. It is not brilliance. Education is endurance, and endurance contends with mediocrity.
And then there is also friendship. There is friendship. The glue of that kind of love is not attraction, but constancy. Friends are there for each other through thick and thin. They make a stand in this world together. But to have and to harbor that kind of love requires a very demanding kind of trust, because in that, you open your very self to devastating heartbreak, pain, and betrayal. And you will experience this. We are afraid of being left by those we love, and we get hardened by the heart. We get hardened by the hurt. But when you do experience it, and you will, there will be a temptation to isolate, to withdraw, to quit, to completely give up. But there’s no protection in that. That’s a portal for the dragon. No, the only protection for us, the only place that we can go is to seek strength in numbers, to live joyful, meaningful lives of friendship with other ragamuffins and vagabonds here in this beautiful, broken world. And there’s sweetness in that, maybe even glory. Friendship is endurance, and endurance vanquishes mediocrity.
I hate to bring it up, I tremble to mention it on this day of all days, but if you open the pages of the New Testament, nowhere do you find life with God described as a personal achievement. Life with God is a constancy, a perseverance, an endurance, steadfastness, fidelity. Jesus said, “Remain in me. Remain in me, that you may bear fruit that will last.” “Stand,” St. Paul thundered, “stand, for we do not contend against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers and earthly rulers of this present darkness.” So stand. Stand. Stand, withstand. He says it four times in regard to our battle and the armor of God. The great tragedies in the epic Christian story are not about those who fail, but about those who throw in the towel, abandon their post, quit, and give up. But if we endure, if we persevere, if we don’t give up, then we always win. This is an ironclad principle of the Christian life. And in an age of instability and distraction in everyday life, it’s almost a superpower.
I have a younger brother who is also a priest, and for a while, he was chaplain of the University of Mary. He’s an exemplary priest. One time, I overheard him preaching to our students about superpowers, and he said, “Despite what you might believe, my brother, the president, does not have any superpowers. He just has a whole lot of regular powers.” So I cut his budget.
The superpower of steadfast perseverance is not about a kind of grim, stoic resolve. It’s not about white-knuckling our lives so that we have to just collapse into constant misery. No, that kind of perseverance is a participation in the essence of God. God is faithful. God is constant. God is steadfast. Virtue matters, yes, it does, and grace builds on nature and perfects it. But the pearl of great price is steady, constant communion with a God who loves us, who has given us our identity, who has created each of us for some great purpose, and who gives us the courage to finish it. St. Paul therefore calls him the God of encouragement and endurance. He’s the God of endurance and encouragement. He gives us courage. And so we seek communion with that God, that constant, persevering God who never gives up, who never gets weary with us, and then we hold on for dear life.
Around this corner is Theological College, where I lived when I was a student here. One of the Sulpician fathers was well-known for giving one-line homilies. One day, he walked up to the pulpit and, channeling or commenting on Hebrews or Jonathan Edwards, he said, “They say it is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God. But what about falling out?”
In this life, our task, our honor, and our privilege is to stay in communion with God and with each other day by day, constantly. And such constancy overwhelms our mediocrity because when it comes to staying in communion, all that matters is right now. The reason that we are not as we ought to be is we are haunted and chased by the past and the future. C.S. Lewis noted this. The past is the age of regret. “I should’ve done that. I shouldn’t have done that.” The future is the age of anxiety. “I’m not adequate to this. It’s going to be too much.” But the most perfect of all times is the present, because God is present, and we are mediocre insofar as we flee from him into the past and into the future instead of staying here with him right now. And if we stay with him, he himself is the prize. If we stay with him, we are perfect at that moment. We are as we should be. And if we don’t give that up, if we stay with him, we always win.
In 1971, Mother Teresa received her very first honorary doctorate in Caldwell Hall from the Catholic University of America. She was known to say, “Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today, so let us begin.” My fellow graduates, if we have only today, then what a day to have, what a day to begin!
May God grant you the fruits of your study all through the years to the end of your days. May God drench your lives with love and with true friendship. May God give you the constancy, perseverance, endurance, steadfastness, and fidelity which will make you into great saints, and may God bless our alma mater, The Catholic University of America.